Wednesday, June 1, 2016

Blog a Day June: The Playlist

I don't talk much about the break up. It was a break up. It happened about six months ago and like all break ups, it was pretty crap. I'm not sure I will ever forgive him for dumping this on me at the time my niece passed away, but those are the breaks. He's no longer in my life - and that's the main thing.

I'm not going into details, He's not worth it. The emotional energy has been spent, he's not living rent free in my head any more. The healing process will continue for a while.

However, like all good break ups there is a sound track that goes with the times. So rather than bore you with the details of a love gone wrong, I'm going to share with you my ultimate break up playlist.

It's helped to keep me sane for the last six months.

You need a beat to get you through. (Still my favourite Fleetwood Mac song)

And of course, you have to have something to support you as you work out what the fuck was going on.

And then the anger sets in. Martha Wainwright says it best.

Then you realise that you're moving on - courtesy of Regina Spektor.

Then the anger comes back. I don't think I should tell him that various friends have offered to go after him with baseball bats. Another mate, who works in the building trade has some kind offers. My step-dad mentioned something about getting the shot gun out if he shows his face about the place.

You have Nick Cave for this:

Then you get a little bit ratty yourself.

Of course, you ponder how you've been treated, especially as all this was happening.

Then the anger comes back again.

Then you get round to working out just what he should be to you.

And you start packing away the memories:

And let him on his way. It's taken six months, but I'm pretty much there.

And finally, you realise that the whole thing is for the best. Better to find out now than another six months down the track.

So six months on - basically sane, happy and pretty much over the coward - which in my books is about the worst thing you can be - I thank music (and my friends) for seeing me through the crap.

It's not something I want to go through again in a hurry.

It's blog a day June. I need to get back into the habit of writing daily - so it's a blog a day plus get a few pages of last term's screenplay done.

I'm a writer. Life is writing fodder.


Plastic Mancunian said...

Hi Pand,

Sorry to hear about that - but glad you've moved on.

I also love Tusk by Fleetwood Mac, as well as Bitch and the Sound of Silence.

Not heard the Ice House one before either (I love Hey Little Girl so I really should delve into their music more).

Good luck with the rest of June. I would do this myself but we have a big football tournament in Europe and my effort will be spent watching England and suffering.




Jackie K said...

It's shitty. You're handling it well. 'Not living rent free in your head anymore' - too right. And that's an awesome playlist.